Many people have tried 10 things from this site. But then, they slip on a banana peel, and down they go. Some have tried 20 things… ditto. A few have tried even more, and still, slip-sliding away they go.
But when you are sincere in your efforts, you are learning a lot. You are missing something, but your efforts are not wasted. You need a bunch of new habits if you are going to quit for good. You tried a bunch of things, and when you keep reading over and over again, that these habits are what you need, keep trying them.
Sometimes how you think when you are starting to slip is a huge problem. Life stinks and you are tempted to throw in the towel. You say – “I just don’t care anymore.” But that is exactly what satan is telling you to say. So don’t say that. Say the truth. “Falling would ruin my week and probably my month. It will take away my light and replace it with the darkness that I hate. It will add destruction.”
Near the end of my addiction, I started speaking the truth exactly like that. So instead of being defiantly decisive, I was saying the truth. And I am not a prophet, but when I did slip up the results were almost always what I said they were going to be.
Speaking the truth is climbing the mountain. Rapid repentance is climbing the mountain. A commitment to changing your thinking through reading the scripture is climbing the mountain.
Lastly, if you keep falling you are missing something. But if you are sincere you can pray with complete faith:
“Father, give me the wisdom I need to fight this addiction.”
“Father, show me how to change.”
Then, climb some more, change some more. Start to think in a new way. You will make it to the top.
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